Friday, September 26, 2008
Soooooo no mood today
I woke up at 11+am and i jumped out of bed as i am suppose to meet Jon at my gym today, thank God he smsed saying it rained(meaning he is not coming). So much for gym and keeping fit. I need more sleep than anything. and i need more motivation then just energy.
Its been 3 days since i dreamt of him in that stupidly vivid dream which i wish didn't happen. Now my thoughts are fill with Zzzzzzzzzzz... Its not nice as i always thought i was over him. Oh well. People think i am strong, nono... wrong again. I am not as strong as you think. I wish he didn't have to go. I wish he would come back soon. Get a decent job here cmon'. Money isn't everything.
Hence, i cant do my homework, i cant sleep, i have no mood to go out.. i donno what i wanna do...super no mood today. Not my usual self. Perk me up someone.... please.....:0
LINYX posted at Friday, September 26, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
I am sorry
Firstly, i would like to apologize to those who have come under my sudden outburst these few days. I shall save the explanation to later. I would like to apologize to Miss S. for my sudden blurt on Thurday, ok, i know its an accusation. Sorry about that. I shall not talk anymore after school on Thurday. My excuse of being tired is not valid because everyone is tired on that day. I have been having bad days last wed and thursday. School work is weighing me down during the day and i am haunted by my dreams at night. I really have no place i can escape. My bad dreams have caused me to wake up in the middle of the night wide awake and after that feeling very lethargic and easily irritated. I am really and extremely sorry to those who I have caused hurt to. I really didn't mean it. I should have just shut up then and there.
I was quite irritated today also when i received an SMS from TL that she did not bring her homework today as i expected her. So i punished her by asking her to do another paper. It was not so much of anger but much more of worried. I would be nice to her if she would have been more responsible. I have been TOO good to her i think. I just hope i am not taken advantage and i hope she appreciates my effort. If not, i really don't feel like giving my heart and soul dedicately trying to save her results. You know, after all it is HER results. I could have no taken up such a big responsibility to teach her. Sorry TL. But you got to prove to everyone you can do it.
Lastly, i wander if i should attend bhajans tomorrow. It has been two weeks since i last went for Monday bhajans. I long for the time when i am free and with no stress about school work. Gone are the days. And also, i wanna go Parthi on the 23rd too!!!
LINYX posted at Sunday, September 14, 2008
LINYX
female
teacher
loves audrey hepburn movies
Wishlist Short Term:
Wishlist Long term:
1)Black Audi TT
2)Parthi trip.
3)Good companionship.
4)Put apart some money into LINYX FOUNDATION box.